One if the funny things about life is that no matter how hard you want things to happen, it doesn’t always work out the way you want it to. Relationships, work, shopping and even ironing doesn’t always end up in the way you want it to. Sometimes you place too much faith into things and it often disappoints you to the point where you just wish that you hadn’t even bothered. This struck my mind after today’s events. I had arranged to meet one of my friends for drinks latter in the evening and was looking forward to it. It was part of my resolutions of things to do this year. It’s January and this was the first opportunity to do it. In fact things where looking up. Normally I would put all my eggs in a basket and make it the focal point of my day. However due to toughening up in the past two years I treated it with the same aloofness that I should treat all things. Let the good times appear naturally instead of placing so much of an emphasis on events and spend all that time stressing. Last year this happened to me when I took people to one of my favourite clubs in London. I placed so much emphasis on them liking the night that I forgot to have fun myself. I overlooked the fact that these people are my friends and have come to spend the night with me at a place. Instead I spent the whole time wondering whether they where having fun themselves. There is nothing wrong with taking care of your friends but I was just mothering them as if it was there first day at school. I kidded myself into believing that if they where having fun so was I but instead it just made things awkward. So tonight didn’t pan out the way I wanted to but instead I had a lovely day. I hung out with a friend earlier in the day had coffee. Watched Arsenal win, got drunk on baileys and burnt her hand. All in all a really enjoyable calm day that made me realise that these little things are enjoyable. I also got to do something that I love to do in London have a really long walk. Especially at night time where you kind of grab the vibe of the city, you really begin to watch your surroundings and instantly learn where certain places are. Extremely handy if you don’t want to pay for a cab and don’t mind walking drunk. Obviously this isn’t for everyone but I really enjoy it the surrounding area was where I was born so it is kind of fun to acquaint yourself with your past. Also the joy of finding out that the local off license sells red stripe was a bonus but it cleared my head in a way a massage or any other form or relaxation wouldn’t. Now I can’t lie to you, I was pissed but I decided not to let it bug me because it probably was for the best. You can’t win them all but in our youthful exuberance and recklessness we refuse to believe it. Not every night is a winner but playing the numbers game is better than dumping all your eggs in one basket. I tend to see a lot of people doing that since I live around the west end where people flock to each weekend to have their big night out. Northerners end up fighting with southerners over trivial things such as did you look at my bird in a funny way? Frustrations all come to the boil due to the insistence on making the night extra special where in reality it isn’t really that important. So I am glad the way things worked out, I now get to sleep a little earlier and set the alarm for match of the day. I hope I read this post the next time I come back home all mardy and pissed because something didn’t go right. At least I didn’t get drunk in a car park.